Hello everyone. I haven't posted for a couple of months, but time has passed nonetheless and I am a little further down the road.
We are on the road to recovery, both in health and finances. It is a long road, but after a period of feeling rather bleak, I hope I am justified in feeling a bit more positive.
My garden needs a lot of work, and it needs to be done as I have looooaaads of seed potatoes to get in the ground. Bought them from a lucky dip for 5.95 including post and packaging and got 100! 40 have gone to my bro. Better start digging for victory!
Scary... but I have to work out am I trying to be naughty and get away with what I can before the BBISN appears, or am I in fact scared of turning into the Big Bad "I SAID NO"?
Actually, what I'm most scared of is that I sound like the BBISN, whereas in fact I say"Is that a good idea? Are you sure you can afford it? Really? Oh, all right then..." It's a begrudging yes, so the light mood of benevolence and hedonism is still denied and no one relaxes.
At Weight Watchers we talk about diet saboteurs. It's really funny, but I think you can also get savings saboteurs.. and would you Adam and Eve it - very often they can be the same thing!
I need to make a promise to myself that I will listen to the small voice that says "I can't afford this" and just say no to things calmly and with self-assurance.
In the meantime, I've had a bit of a Stoppit and Tidyup moment, and sorted out around 40 books for sale from my book-cluttered office. They're in bags ready to go, and already my office is a nicer place to work. Have I been Kondoed? I think i may have been!